Fly away where a new world waits for you
Always look back though
Not to cry, and not to regret
Just to help who’s left behind
Help us all to heal and understand
Cause we don’t know why you had to leave
I can only guess it was time for you to be free
To ascend to a broader more wonderful life than this
I believe you’re in a better place now
A place where only beautiful souls will hold you
Be sure to comfort, and protect your children
They need you now
Stand behind them
Rise within them
And love them
— Beautiful Peace by The Murmurs
I lost my little Roderick today. To say I am distraught, inconsolable, sad and defeated would be a total understatement. His abscess had spread and was going through his abdominal cavity, rapidly, and he had little chance of survival if we put him through surgery. I didn’t want to lose him but I didn’t want him suffering any more than he already had. I don’t want to write a big post about this – that would be tacky and disrespectful to my little man. I loved him more than anything and if I could trade places with him, I would do it in a heartbeat. He was funny, cheeky, brave and special. I was lucky to have him in my life for the 8 months I did and to be without him now makes my heart ache.
To all of you who have pets in your life, please cherish and love them and give them a hug from me. Be grateful for every moment you get to share with them. They are precious and beautiful and we are so lucky to have them with us for the short time they are allowed on this Earth. I’m not talking to God right now – he wouldn’t want to hear what I have to say to him at this minute – but I hope that if he’s really up there, he’s taking my little man in his arms and letting him know he was loved and that there’ll be no more suffering for him.
RIP Roderick – you were everything to me and I’m sorry I let you down.